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Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Tired Tuesday

I was going to call this post 'Angry Tuesday' but wanted to use the magic of alliteration again like last week.  Besides I'm not so much angry as I am tired. What am I tired of? I'm tired of taking abuse, and having to thank others for the privilege, that's what I'm tired of. 


Basically, I'm tired of bullshit. Specifically other people's bullshit (OPB).


See, I have more than enough bullshit of my own to trudge through everyday, but I don't take it out on other people. You know what I do when the shit gets real bad? Sometimes I have a glass of red wine or a vodka tonic at night to help calm me down so I can sleep, that's what. I don't construct accusatory essays of how I'm right and everyone else is wrong, and how my life is sooo hard I shouldn't be held accountable for being a jerk when I'm a jerk. That for sure I don't do.


So, Tuesday, I'm saying that I am tired and stressed from working through my lunch break today to deal with myriad bullshit on top of bullshit, I have internal nasal pain that I've never experienced before, my foot hurts from running yesterday, and I'm tired. Yeah, that's right, Chickin is TIRED. Tonight was my night off of running, and I had a glass of wine to calm myself down after the day I had. And now I'm heading to bed before 10:00 like I'm 80 years old--and I will get up and do it all over again tomorrow. Most men lead lives of quiet desperation indeed.


Blerg. Bedtime.

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Thankful Thursday

I'm going to take time out from my usual sarcastic, cynical rants and post something positive for once. A running blog I read regularly had a blog post of the same title today, so I thought I would draw inspiration from that and take a moment to be thankful for the things that have happened in my life in the past week. Here goes:


1. Last week my husband finally got a bona fide, salaried job in his field, with benefits and all, and making more than he has in the past doing the same work. He has been laid off for over a year, and has been working a grunt job since March. Things have been tough for us, not just financially, but also relationship-wise. He has been suffering from slight depression and an overall sense of worthlessness. In fact, we didn't know how tough things had been for us until we experienced the release of good news after all this time. Things are looking up!


2. I spent a great week with my crazy family last week. I ate too much, drank too much, didn't get enough sleep--but it was worth it because it is going down in the annals as one of the best family visits, ever. The only thing that could have made it better is my husband's presence, but there will be other visits. Also, a trip to London to visit family might materialize in the near future.


3. My mom may have finally broken up with her emotionally-destructive and physically abusive boyfriend of 5+ years. She left him and was looking for houses last week when I was there...she wants a place of her own, away from him. Though I'll hold off believing it until it finally transpires, that's still something to be thankful for.


4. We started our 1/2 marathon training this week despite recent running laziness setbacks, and so far we are sticking to it. We've run 8 miles this week with 5 to go by Sunday, totaling 13 for Week 1. It hasn't been easy, but I will get there.


5. In my immediate friend realm, I am happy for friends who are expecting, and  another friend who is expecting to get engaged very soon. Lots of happy events will be occurring in the coming year, and I feel lucky to be a part of it all.


Wow. FIVE things to be thankful for--that's quite a lot! All of this positivity is making me depressed however; I'm going to bed.